Soy comedora compulsiva, y genéticamente predispuesta a subir de peso...
Estoy cansada de ser gorda
Estoy cansada de las nutriologas lindas y delgadas y de sus dietas para bajar medio gramo al mes, como si no quisieran que yo fuera bonita como ellas.
Odio el departamento de tallas grandes
Odio ver esa linda blusa abandonada en el fondo de mi closet que jamás me quedó
Quiero ser hermosa
Quiero ser princesa
Quiero ser diosa
Una vez hace algun tiempo, un doctor me presentó a Ana, fuimos amigas y todo iba de maravilla, el carbón comenzaba a pulirse, pero me asusté y la abandoné...
Fui de nuevo carbón
Hoy me arrepiento tanto de haberla dejado, pude haber logrado tanto
Ayer decidí volver con ella
Si voy a padecer un desorden alimenticio, prefiero una y mil veces que sea algo que me haga bonita en lugar de algo que me deforme, el reto es doble, debo superar la compulsión, Ana ayúdame! prometo no volver a traicionarte jamás!
Este es el plan (lo haré poco a poco, para disminuir el riesgo de caer):
Kcal requeridas para mantener mi peso: 2700
Kcal necesarias para perder peso "sanamente": 2200
Plan de Consumo
1er y 2do Mes: 1000 - 1200kcal
3er Mes: 1000kcal
4to y 5to Mes: 900 - 1000kcal
6to y 7mo Mes: 700 - 900Kcal
He puesto en mi celular la palabra "Princess" para recordarme por que estoy haciendo esto, y me he guardado en la cartera una lista de Reglas Ana para los momentos de debilidad.
Después de eso veré como ando, y que cambios hacer, por lo pronto el primer reporte:
DIA 1
Consumo Total: 1056Kcal
Desayuno.
Todo normal, nada nuevo que reportar, seguí la regla de masticar hasta que la comida se deshaga en mi boca, y de tomar un trago de agua entre bocado, tuve que terminarme todo el desayuno porque mi abuela estaba a un lado, pero pude sentir como me llenaba a la mitad, es genial, cuando desayune en la uni, voy a poder dejarlo a la mitad sin que me cueste tanto!
Comida.
Tuve una naranja en mis manos, sé que es fruta y que es natural y bla bla, pero sigue teniendo azúcares, pude dejarla en el carro, luego mi madre se la comió. Comida: Tres cucharadas de carne molida y tres cucharadas de arroz al horno. Fue maravilloso!, seguí masticando hasta 60 veces y tomando agua entre bocados, era casi mágico ver como yo no acababa con el plato mientras que la demás gente a mi alrededor comía y comía y tomaba pan, y se servía más y comía papas fritas, no pude evitar sentirme contenta, esta nueva manera de comer me ha ahorrado todas esas kcalorias que de otra forma hubiera consumido!. Después de comer salí con mis amigos, en cuanto llegué había una de mis amigas comiendo nachos con queso, estuve tentada a pedirle uno, pero no lo hice...
Luego mi compulsión me atacó: comencé a temblar y a sentir una necesidad horrible de comer el agua no me calmaba, me sentía muy inquieta, y pues como apenas es el primer día supe que si no lo solucionaba pronto de manera inteligente iba a terminar comiendo algo que no debía, así que corrí a comprar una coca cola light (3kcal aprox por botella)... terminé tomandome dos botellas pero seguía ansiosa, al volver con mi familia pasamos por una tienda de autoservicio y me compré alfalfa... estaba temblando tanto que la regué toda por el auto, aun así la recogí y me la comí... solo así se calmó mi compulsión...
Cena.
He logrado cambiar la leche por el té, y volví a hacer lo mismo que en el desayuno, estoy contenta, fue un buen primer dia, pude sentir el hambre, y fue tan lindo!!!...
Se que aun no es un régimen digno de una princesa, pero es mi primer día y cumplí con las kcal de hoy.
Ahora, algo de inspiración, una bella muñeca charleston, un día seré como ella!:
Y una linda canción que me dio fuerza el día de hoy:
Letra:
After all you put me through,
you'd think I'd despise you.
But in the end, I wanna thank you.
Cuz you made me that much stronger.
Well I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff
Time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know .. just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
Never, saw it coming
All of .. your backstabbing
Just so .. you could cash in
On a good thing
before I realized your game
I heard,
you're going around
Playing,
the victim now
But don't .. even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you're wanting to harm me
but that won't work anymore
No more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how .. to be this way now,
I'll never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust,
So cruel?
Could only see the good in you
Pretended .. not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies,
Disguise yourself
Through .. living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WONT-STOP-ME!!
I am a fighter
I'm a
I ain't gonna stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
You thought i would forget
Lord I, I remember
Oh ohh, Oh ohh
Cause i remember
I remember
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
Thanks for making me a fighter
you'd think I'd despise you.
But in the end, I wanna thank you.
Cuz you made me that much stronger.
Well I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff
Time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know .. just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh
Never, saw it coming
All of .. your backstabbing
Just so .. you could cash in
On a good thing
before I realized your game
I heard,
you're going around
Playing,
the victim now
But don't .. even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you're wanting to harm me
but that won't work anymore
No more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how .. to be this way now,
I'll never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust,
So cruel?
Could only see the good in you
Pretended .. not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies,
Disguise yourself
Through .. living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WONT-STOP-ME!!
I am a fighter
I'm a
I ain't gonna stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
You thought i would forget
Lord I, I remember
Oh ohh, Oh ohh
Cause i remember
I remember
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
Thanks for making me a fighter
Adios Kcal!! Me supieron ricas en su momento, pero hoy sé que será mucho más delicioso ser hermosa!
Atte: Amalia Rosa
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